Rec of the day

[astridv]

vid rec: a trailer for that movie we ain't gonna get... but at least we can pretend it exists.
Black Widow Trailer
characters: Natasha, Clint, Bucky, (Fury, Hill, Coulson); 2:00 min

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I went bouldering today after a forced 10 day break... I'd been getting withdrawal symptoms. I mean, for real. Last night I had a really stupid, frustrating dream where I was at a climbing gym and didn't get to climb. (My subconscious is not very inventive, apparently.)

Anyway, today we had a nice, relaxed climbing session in one of the hidden spots I got pointed to recently. I also tried one of the concrete ping pong tables next to it... nice for climbing under; the top-out is not without challenge. Hope I'll get to climb again in a few days 'cuz this felt great and boy, did I miss it.

Comments

[ratcreature]

My subconscious is not very inventive, apparently.

Be glad, nobody wants an inventive subconscious. I still remember the dream where my subconscious apparently tried to spruce up the boring anxiety dream where during some family dinner or other I was berated by relatives, by setting the whole thing also in some kind of apocalyptic pestilence scenario with bloated corpses floating around in tunnels through which I was being chased.

[astridv]

Wow. I see your point. ;) It's... creative, though.

[ratcreature]

Well, it is not that creative, because being chased through byzantine architecture is a recurring theme in my nightmares. Unfortunately with nightmares and anxiety dreams my subconscious seems to think "the more the better" so it often combines themes, like while being chased through tunnels also my teeth are crumbling and falling out. Or with nightmarish family gatherings.

I sometimes really hate that I can dream so vividly. I mean, the only time I ever experienced something like a panic attack was after waking from truly horrible nightmares. Also the only time I ever experienced a flashback, i.e. saw something that wasn't real but that caused me to panic for a moment until I sorted out reality, was actually a flashback to a nightmare I had the night before, but that I had forgotten, and that was triggered by standing in a spot looking in a mirror like I had been in the dream, and then I saw the nightmare image for a split second, not what was really there. I mean, it's kind of pathetic to get that kind of reaction not even to something real that happened but just something you dreamed, you know?

[less_star]

That trailer was awesome! I wish I lived in a universe where Widow could get her own blockbuster. At least there's fandom. (Also, I want the Winter Soldier movie now, screw waiting two years!)

[astridv]

I hope Natasha's at least gonna be in the Winter Soldier movie... otherwise, don't know if I'll watch. I'll play it by ear.